This past week has been filled with highs and lows. Internship. Heartache. Great friends. Sickness. New school. Adjustment.
God has been highlighting my weakness. I have been seeing His strength. He has carried me. I have fought him to walk on my own. He has shown Himself faithful. I fall short every time.
Once again the scales have been removed from my eyes and I can see a glimpse of what He sees. I realize if at times I feel like this with Jesus, what must others feel like without Him. Who will share with them? Will we offer them a meal that is fleeting, a superficial conversation or will we offer them Jesus whose salvation is eternal? I don't want to help people "feel" better. Because feelings lie to us. I want to offer them truth and everlasting life. I want to be bold.
I knew seeking the Lord and living in obedience to God's call on our lives would open us up to free for all attacks from the enemy. Praise the Lord I already know who wins this battle. Jesus has already paid the price. Satan cannot touch me. He must be mad. I can feel his attacks, like a barrage of arrows to my soul.
Thankfully I wear the armor of God...
Ephesians 6:10-2010Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
19Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.